In memory & honor of our angel baby girl, Kynnzleigh James Gwen Christopher. She was our first-born baby girl together & she made her entrance into this world, 5 days early, on July 5th, 2023 at 11:39AM, weighing in at 6lbs 9oz & 19 1/4" in length, all natural, vaginal birth, like the little rockstar that she was :'-) Her father, Quentin & I, unfortunately only got a short 30 days with our baby girl & we miss her more than anything. We miss her every second of every day & I can't wait until I'm able to hold her in my arms again. Kynnzleigh James Gwen Christopher. Poor girl, not only did we give her 4 first names, she also has two middle names, AND her name makes out to be 32 characters long :'-))) I kept saying she was going to be the best spelling bee in her classroom because of that. Oh, how I wish we could watch her grow every day. I miss her little lips, even when they would get all chapped & milky from feeding off the boobies lol. She was a ROCKSTAR at breastfeeding from the get-go! That girl knew what was up & I couldn't have been prouder to be her mother & to watch her have such a good appetite & breastfeed so flawlessly. She was such a PRO at that, that Kynnzleigh never actually dropped down in her weight after leaving the hospital & coming home with us. NOT ONCE :'-))) I guess at the time I wasn't aware that it was typical, if not by default, that most babies drop in their birth weight, a little bit at least, typically after being delivered & coming home. So, to say the least, WE WERE OVER THE MOON PROUD OF OUR KYNNZLEIGH GIRL (and I must confess, I definitely had a PROUD MAMA MOMENT). One day, while changing her diaper, she wasn't very happy about doing, NOT ONE BIT, and she started crying so hard that she was turning red & holding her breath a little bit like babies do unintentionally... And it just broke my heart, I couldn't let her feel that way for one more second, so with her onesie still unsnapped & halfway up her back, I remember picking her up to soothe her, & for whatever reason, I said "Oh Peaches! Oh baaabyyy, it's okay baby girl, momma's got you! Oh, Peaches honey it's okay now, we're all done. Momma's got you now!" And she calmed her breathing & the cries drifted off, and we both just snuggled up on the couch together, and of course baby girl needed some more booby time, so we knew the drill & just sat back & she latched on without any struggle like a PRO. And so there it was, it stuck, her nickname was now Peaches. Thinking back to that moment, I remember feeling that it was Kynnzleigh who soothed ME and comforted ME, in that moment we shared together. I felt so full of love & so honored to be her mother, that I was able to in that few minutes, provide her with, not only, what she needed, but what I felt in my heart & my whole body & hers, that I could provide her with what she wanted too, and not a word had to be spoken from her mouth for me to feel that. That's all my baby girl needed, was love. And that's all I needed too. For someone to need & want me, & to find comfort in my presence & touch, unconditionally. She made me whole, right then & there. I never knew what unconditional love felt like before that moment with her, my sweet peaches. I miss her every second of every day. Momma loves you my precious angel baby & forever my baby you'll be <3
-Kynnzleigh's Momma